acting

That's too simple. Lets act like Audrey. Thats it. Lets act.

I am watching you now

And I am watching you now, I see you building the castle with one hand while tearing down another with the other! 

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  Olmasa da olur öyle değil mi? Bak nasıl da devam edermiş hayat, olmasa da olurmuş öyle değil mi? Söyle lütfen öyle değil mi? Olmasa da olur. Bazen yokluk değil mi daha güzel. Öyle değil mi? Olmasa da olur. Olur değil mi?

Gidelim mi? Uzak bir yere, bir sen bir nefesin bırakıp gidelim mi?

noap

 I just change my mind. What i choose as a quote of the day is '' when you want to give up, remember why you started. '' Never let a nobody make you snookered. Because they can not! Go go go! 

So

I was defeated. 

Chocolate banana chip but vegan!

What a lovely morning? Today what are you gonna do for yourself? Me! I bake great chocolate-banana chip cookies for my yoga class! I will do my regular yoga but like a dancer this time! After that all we will meet with our best friend ( we are three best friends for 15 years! ) joy joy joy just enjoy!

Recipe is coming too!

2 very ripe bananas,  mashed
85 gr. oats
Cinnamon 
Chocolate chips


Mix them all. Use two spoons for shapes. Bake for 15 minutes (170 C)

And then joy joy joy enjoy!

If

 If or what if? Don't you have ifs? Don't you ever have ifs or what ifs? I had, I had them a lot. The main think for my life or let's say for the perspective of my life is not to have ifs but although that i have a lot of what ifs! A couple of weeks before i have them a lot. A couple of months before i am full of them. But now ''je n'ai rien! , Je n'ai rien mais j'ai nous... encore j'ai nous. ''

Hüzün

 Bedenim, ruhum sevmez aslında hüznü. Hüzün için yaratılmamışım ben. Hangimiz hüzün için yaratıldık desenize bana? Hiç birimiz desem ya bende size? Ama ben gülümserim hep minik minik, büyük büyük, dev dev... Gülümserim ben hep. Çünkü tek sığınağım ve tek inancım ayna da gördüğüm bendir, benliğimdir. Eğer hüzün kaplarsa bedenimi, ruhumu, benliğimi kaybederim. Kaybetmek için yaratılmamışım ben. Hangimiz kaybetmek için yaratıldık desenize bana? Hiç birimiz desem ya bende size? Yorgun bedenim, yorgun ruhum nedensiz ya da bir çok nedeni var. Sorgusuz kabul ediyorum yorgunluğu. Hak veriyorum. Dinliyorum onu, nasıl istersen öyle olsun diyorum. Hüzünse hüzün, tebessümse tebessüm... Hüznü seçiyor bu gece. Dev gibi bir hüznü. Ona hiç yakışmayan o hüznü ve ben saygı duyuyorum ona. Kulak veriyorum acısına. Kulak veriyorum özlem duygusunun onda yarattığı bu dev acıya... 

 Hadi siz de kulak verin bu gece. Bırakın, güçsüzleşin, teslim olun benliğinize, izin verin. Hüzünse hüzün, tebessümse tebessüm... Suya bırakın herşeyi, zamana bırakın hepsini, gökyüzüne bırakın... Sadece bırakın. İnanın rüzgardır sizi taşıyacak olan. Siz farketmesenizde kendi rüzgarınız sizi taşıyacak olan. Yine sizsiniz her şeyi geride bırakıp ayakta durucak olan; ama bırakın bu gece her ne istiyorsa bedeniniz o sarsın sizi. Benim ki hüzün. Bu gece hüzün. Benim ki bu gece hüzün...

i miss

 i have a huge part which is as a huge missing. i have huge hearth which is full of miss. i am just missing.

just a dream

 Just dream, maybe it is just a dream but for me if i dream it will never stay as just a dream. My new step is India. I am not sure for the time exactly but the main point is i am gonna live in India in one of my chapters of my book which i call ''just a dream''. Just dream but never let it stay as just a dream !

i am coming home

For the last days of my life in France, Every single day i was singing and dancing with hope.
Like I am coming home I am coming home, tell the world I am coming home, let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday, I know my kingdom awaits they have forgiven my mistakes, I am coming home! I am coming!!!  Never forget there is always a hope, there is always a kingdom which is waiting  for forgiving. Never forget there is always an exit. 

Shavasana

If you made a choice for doing yoga, it means that you are lucky. If you are making yoga with your best friend, it means you are more than lucky. If you are rolling over on your best friends back, it means you are the luckiest.  Light a candle and never forget best asana is shavasana!! 
Enjoy your life, enjoy your dreams, enjoy your moments or whatever! 

yani...

Yani yaşıyor olmak, yaşamakla bağdaşmaz bazen...

Day of archaeology!

Day of archaeology! Happy archaeologist day!

Feeling close

I really feel something special for the Greek islands. Maybe it's about past of my family or maybe just indifference  of the Greek ones.  Whatever. I feel close!  Nowadays I am not sure about my plans or my dreams but I can honestly say that I will have my little cafe in a small Greek island, already thinking of my lovely hopscotch! 

Nowadays, what I call "life" is just a Greek salad. What I call "hope" is just a saganaki. What I call "happiness" is just a retsina. What I call, what I call or whatever...


Kisses from Samos 

Happiness

                                

                                                        I have something to say;

                                            Stressed Spelled Backwards is Desserts

  

                                  

Best way

 Best way to start a vacation is a newlybake, hot chocolatechip isn't it? Give me one and more. Give me milk and more. That's how i start My lovely family vacation. We will go on with rain and a greek island. Wait for my calm photos from Samos and please never forget to smile, never forget to believe. Whatever you believe, just live and believe.

What i love what i belong is just habits

  

What a beautiful morning again and again. Whole family, huge breakfast, lovely fire, being crowded... What i love, what i belong is just habits. Where i belong is just nature. Sometimes you miss being crowded, you miss having a noisy house. Someone is cooking, someone is baking, someone goes to village for bread, someone makes fire, grandmom makes traditional dessert, everyone smiles, everyone talks, everyone makes noise,  everyone argues. But everyone knows , what we love what we belong is just habits, where we belong is just nature. Sometimes you miss but never missed. 
   

   

Get lost in nature

Get lost in nature and you will find yourself.  Isn't it too simple? While you are having trouble go and get lost in nature.  Leaves are falling as us. Weather gets colder as our spirits. Wind blows for stunning. Will you gonna let it? Never forget best time of the year just arrived. Every life has a time for falling as leaves, every life has a time for born again.  Just try to stand. Never forget there is a place somewhere out there. There is a new life, new begging out there. Just try to stand. Go and get lost in nature you will find yourself. And you have chance to survive again and again...

Tombe tombe tombe

Let the pieces fall where they may...

trying to go on

what i feel or how i feel or let's say whatever... Last week i thought i lost my mind, i lost all the things i had as i lost my life... That's why whole week i just try to go on, try to survive, try not to think... i did a lot of things. Only aim i had is try to fall in a sleep without thinking, That's right i can walk but that's the truth i am not sure who owns the feet. Maybe i have to stop trying to be strong, maybe i have to give up smiling while i am crying inside, maybe that's the right time to fall, maybe i have to concede they make me drop. What i have in my hands is just nothing, what i have in my heart although all that pain is a lot. So, that's right i can have a great life again but that's the truth i am not strong enough to live again. What i feel or how i feel or let's say whatever...

MindBodyGreen

What am i planning to do is; i am going to share some texts from the blogs or the sites which i check  every single day. Never forget to respect yourself. Namaste.

15 Signs You've Stopped "Doing Yoga" & Have Become A Yogi

1. You've started saying you're "practicing asana" instead of "doing yoga."

You now see that yoga is so much more than bending and flexing your body. You fully appreciate and respect the physical asana practice, but you know that it's just one part of the whole.

2. You don't have a home yoga studio — because your home is a studio.

Every room in your house is fair game for asana, as long as your mat fits.

3. You've let go of the evangelical phase.

You absolutely believe in yoga and its powers for helping to transform live, but you also fully respect that everyone is on their own path, and if and when the time is right those around you will ask you for information on yoga. You're more concerned with just living your practice.

4. You no longer care what your yoga asana teacher looks like and what asanas she can perform.

You attend classes purely on how the teacher makes you feel, and the message she has to give.

5. You sit in Sukasana or lotus 99% of the time you're sitting.

At the dinner table, waiting for the bus, at the office. You just feel more comfortable sitting cross legged.

6. You practice asana at home just as much or more than you do at a studio.

You have an intimate knowledge of your own body, and your asana time has become a time of turning in and self reflection. You love the community of group classes, but your practice is becoming increasingly sacred and private.

7. You're not hung up on any one lineage of teaching.

You now respect that all teachers have something to offer, and you're more concerned with learning and growing than siding with one way of thinking.

8. You actually do have a change in perspective each time you come out of an inversion.

You now have deep insights about yourself and life during your practice, because you're able to draw your attention to your breath and slow down. This makes you more open and receptive to higher wisdom.

9. You're well aware that the pain in your hip is from resentment towards your mom.

And the tweak in your shoulder is from the stress of your job. And you're working on it.

10. You get mantras stuck in your head instead of music.

You're chanting Sanskrit to yourself while you drive, scroll through e-mails at work and while waiting in line at the grocery store. Those chants are just so catchy!

11. You regularly take time to stop and watch your breath during your day.

Checking in with your body and how you're feeling are an integral part of your life now. Awareness is becoming a way of being, not just something you do when you're practicing asana

12. You've read Light On Life by B.K.S Iyengar, and it actually meant something to you.

You now get high when you practice pranayama, and refer to this book for Facebook status update material.

13. You've stopped blaming your drama on other people.

You're starting to see that we are all one, that you are a part of the greater whole. No one is for you or against you, everyone is you and you are everyone. No one can push a button in you that doesn't exist, so the work is internal. You may still be bothered by other people, but you always take the time to catch yourself and turn inside.

14. You have your own way of eating that respects your body.

You know that there's no one right way to practice ahimsa; you now look at it as that which causes the least harm. You choose your dietary approach from an inner wisdom.

15. You feel comfortable calling yourself a yogi or yogini.

Even though you still drink alcohol or coffee, watch trashy T.V sometimes, complain about your boss and can't hold a perfect handstand. You call yourself a yogi or yogini because you know that you're on your journey, there is no "perfect" and you're grateful for every moment of this wild ride.

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Sonra deniyorsun, deniyorsun, deniyorsun... Ve bir sabah dev gibi bir özlemle uyanıyorsun. İşte o sabah hemen tekrar uyuyorum bir sonraki uyanışımda olmasın özlem diye. Bazen denemelerime yeniliyorum.

what we got is just namaste!

kaçıncı perde?

Yavruağzı bir yuvarlak var ortada 
Çiçeğe benziyor ebruli 
Tirşe bir telaş var şu köşede 
Uçuk mavilerin arasında 
Şarkılar bir renktir çoğu zaman 
Ben bir ressamım işte o zaman 
Özenle seçilmiş sözcükler 
Yüzlerce aday arasında 
Sıkıştırılmış bir tuğla gibi 
Artık ayıramazsın birbirinden 
Şarkılar bir şiirdir çoğu zaman 
Ben bir şairim işte o zaman

Oyun var, oyun var şimdi başlıyor 
Ancak hangi yan sahne belli değil 
Bu kaçıncı perde hiç yorulan yok 
Gerçeklerde düş var düşler gerçeklerde 
Şarkılar bir oyundur çoğu zaman 
Ben başroldeyim işte o zaman 
Sen varsın, iyi ki varsın yanımda 
Dokunmak istiyorum saçlarına 
Yaşamak zor gerçekten zor birlikte 
O resimde şu şiirde bu oyunda 
Şarkılarım senindir her zaman 
Ben sen oldum işte o zaman 

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hüzne bulanmadan yaşanmıyor ki olric.
ilk açılan yaranın bir daha kapanmayacağını
ilk kopan fırtınanın ömür boyu dinmeyeceğini
hep ilk olanın ne varsa aniden değiştirivereceğini
nereden bilebilirdin ki olric.
şehirler değiştiriyorum…olric
"içimden şehirler geçiyor sen her durakda duruyor inmiyorsun"lara
takılıp kalıyorum
şehirler değişiyor olric ben değişiyorum
değiştikçe kanıyorum
dünya da değişiyor ya.
bir yaşanmışlıklar olduğu gibi duruyor işte.
"sen yok desen de. ay dolunay işte." 

ve ben vazgeçip her şeyden
hayatlardan bir gölge gibi çekiliyorum uzaklara.!

fluctuat nec mergitur

  I am asking for a new life, for a new start. I just want to take a huge breath. I am looking for parks for run without have an acquaintanceship with anyone. I am looking for a road to go on. I am looking for having a power to forget them all. I am looking for being regretful. I am trying to be strong. I am just trying to go on. Huge way, one way, one ticket. Just having one year to move on. After that all i will be good enough to survive. And after that all i will repeat '' fluctuat nec mergitur ''.

Sonbahar

Çok severim sonbaharları ya siz? Hüzünlüdür, serindir, yalnızdır, son bahardır. Yağmur yağar, şimşekler sonra, dökülür yapraklar etrafa. Sıcak kahvelerin fincanları iki elle sarılmaya başlanır, kızaran burunlar çoğalır. Hüzünlüdür sonbahar ama en çok , çünkü o son bahardır. Aynı yaprakların döküldüğü gibi dökülüyorum, dağılıyorum rüzgarla, uçuşuyorum korkusuzca. Aynı serin bir sonbahar rüzgarı gibi nereye estiğim belli değil uzaklara dokunmaya çalışıyorum. Aynı yağmurlar gibi usulca dökülüyorum. Aynı şimşekler gibi kendime çakıyorum. Aynı o gri deniz gibi huzursuzca kıpırdanıyorum. Biliyorum sonbaharın hüznünü, seviyorum sonbaharın hüznünü. Kolay olmayacak ama zor da değil. Bu son baharda gecicek.  Eylül geçti, Ekim'de geçicek. Peki ben aynı ben olabilecek miyim? Kocaman gülümseyen, dev gibi seven. Kolay olmayacak ama zor da değil. Bu son baharda geçicek.